A Different Reality

Something I wrote at midnight ♥️

In some reality, I would have it all

A house, the kids and the fancy car

Out in the world, holding your hand

Smiling because nothing hurts me

Somewhere that is the life I live

Yearning for it here, it's useless

Yet the feeling burns me the same

The thought consumes my mind

Perhaps I'm too selfish

Too needy to want more

But this feeling, I can't control it

It drives me insane, this love

I've never felt this way before

I dream about it wide awake

Every other possible reality

Desperate for a happy ending

But when you ask what's wrong

I never find the words to say

What if it pushes you away

My desperation suffocates you

And if you choose to walk away

I don't know how I'll survive it

I try to bury everything inside

But every once in a while

It bleeds through my skin

So visible in every action

My need for you gets hard to hide

Terrified, I pray you won't see it

Not wanting things to change

A life without you

Honestly it's not worth living anyway

In some reality, I would say it all

Those three little words and more

And you would smile back at me

The same love in those pretty eyes

You would let me take your hand

Saying I took too long to confess

That we've always been end game

But this isn't a fairytale

But I keep wishing for the impossible

Keep hoping that we make it there

To the place of my dreams

Where I can say everything

And never have to let you go

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